9 more days to my birthday and I'm really excited. I'll finally turn 17 so yay! I know I haven't posted in 1000 years but I've been so busy lately, honestly. I started school recently and the only thing I can say about it is that I absolutely hate it. I have no interest in what I'm studying at all which sucks because I'm not motivated to study at all. I know myself well enough to know that I won't do well at all. After much consideration, I finally mustered enough courage to switch course. I'm not sure if the school will validate it but I'm going to try anyway. Let's just see how things go from here alright? I'm really praying hard that they'll accept my transfer because currently I'm dreading school every single day. Sigh, I would honestly die if I continue staying in my current course. Dear lord, please allow my transfer to be successful, I beg of you. It'll be a great birthday present from you to me.
On another note, I feel nothing but disappointment from you D. I thought you were different from the rest but I guess I was wrong, right? The feeling I get form you when you're alone is so different from what I feel from you when you're with the rest. Why can't you just be yourself? Why do you feel the need to fit in? I like you just the way you are and it doesn't make sense that you're trying to change yourself to be like them. It's ridiculous and I don't like it at all. Let's see how things go from here ok. I can't give you my commitment if you can't show me your true self. Why are you hiding so many things from me? I really really like you though. No one has ever made me feel so special before. You're always telling me that I'm cute (which is something that's totally new to me) and telling me how happy you are to see me. Don't give me hope if you don't intend to do anything about it. Please go back to normal D, I know you're keeping something from me and I really need you to tell me what it is before I go mad.
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